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GVK explores trusting yourself

gvk-final-01Jennifer Urezzio and I explored the topic of trusting one’s self. Trusting the self takes practice. We certainly came into the world trusting ourselves, but, life happens and we start to lose ground.

I’ve got a gabillion experiences around Not trusting myself and all the trouble I got into because of it. The inner voice is the Truth, but, sometimes it just does not make sense. OR, in my case when I was younger, I simply did not care about the consequences and moved forward anyway.

I have definitely explored the dark side of life to see what it held, even though my inner voice or my Self, was screaming NO!! Seriously, sometimes my life played out like a scary movie, sans the monsters. Although, I did meet some humans along the way that could have doubled for monsters. And it was those experiences that left me wondering how I could ever make a sane choice and trust it again.

The key is sane. Most of the time that I was meeting and having uncomfortable experiences, I was wasn’t grounded. I wasn’t caring for myself in a healthy way emotionally or physically. So, when the voice came in to move me in a different direction, I was too fuzzy to truly hear it. Now, on a few occasions, that voice Screamed at me to wake me up, which is how I met my husband, Jeff (hooray Voice!).

Regardless of where you are in your process, Know that your inner self wants your highest good. You are not being “tested” (a term that I despise) by some outside force! You are here to thrive, so take a deep breath. Get a meditation practice underway, and learn to pick up the signals that are all around you to guide you into well being and love. Unless of course, you still want to wander around in the murkiness of uncertainty and fear. Want is the operative word here.

Jennifer has created a language of the soul to help you know who you are at your core which helps you maneuver in this world a lot more easily! Who doesn’t want more ease? I pick up every tool available to me and try it on for a while to see if it helps me be in the world in a more profound way. I have found Jennifer’s tool to a worthwhile investment!

GVK soothes the inner child with Carolyn Riker

gvk-final-01The words of Carolyn Riker wash over me like a warm ocean wave. What she can do with words makes my soul sing. So! imagine my thrill when she came onto the show so that we could chat about the inner child.

Your inner child is a very active and vibrant part of your everyday life. And if you are not in touch with that inner child, that child will be running show and you won’t even know. Ever have an emotion well up that is so powerful that you can’t breathe? Yup, that’s your inner child needing to be heard. There is a saying “if it’s hysterical, then it is historical” ~ meaning that the issue that has brought you to your knees it is from your past.

The inner child ~ profound, unveiled, un~inhibited, free and shining ~ that’s how we come onto this earth. The child inside all of us has things to say; whether it’s joy and rainbows or sorrow from a pain that they did not understand. The first time I connected with my inner child, she reminded me that I that I love to lay on the grass and watch the clouds go by so,I brought that practice back into my life.

It is vastly important to begin the dialogue with that inner child because whether you know it or not that inner child drives your decisions, your feelings and your reactions. Unless you and that child are working together as a team and that child knows that it is loved and honored, you will find yourself reacting to things as if you were that child!

After my conversation with Carolyn, my husband called to discuss the school situation that we handled for my daughter just the day before. There’s still a great deal of emotion surrounding it and how she is experiencing her teen life. I stepped out of the car walked up to the door, and there, in my garden, were four goldfinches! My guardian angel shows up as the goldfinch. And because I am in communion with my inner child, she is always helping me to take pause and look around. And when I do, I see the wonder that only a child can see. I see that gift of reassurance from Mother Nature…xoK

Carolyn’s Poem
Nothing could take her from her daydreams
I saw her today.
We sat in a distant memory.
Quietly I watch her contemplate the universe; she held it in her eyes.
The cotton dress appeared sunny and her hair firmly tied until she could set it free.
She might have been about three. The apple of youth had fallen too soon from her favorite tree.
She sat closely with the stars and felt the earth move through her feet.
Nothing could take her from her daydreams.
Each blink we had was in rhythm; I felt her breath remove a pane of glass from my heart.
And in the softest voice I could find in my mind I told her how much I loved her.
She whispered back with eyelashes laced in morning dew, I love you too. I’m glad we made it this far.

To read more of Carolyn Riker’s profound work check out her blog 

Hold My Hand by Hootie and the Blowfish

GVK’s storytelling about beginnings

gvk-final-01The Phoenix is one of my totems in life and I completely identify with being reborn from the ashes of the past. It is fierce,  bursting into life with determination, grace, fire and beauty.  It is magical and knows the power of beginning.

When I was younger, my beginnings were sooooo messy! Mostly because I experienced some very scary changes that lead to some very long stretches of me not being safe physically or emotionally. So! I started to associate beginnings with fear and went into new things either kicking and screaming or diving in with out looking around to see if there was any water to dive into.  I dove into some deep empty wells in my younger years!  And with those experiences building a repertoire in my psyche, I found myself floundering; bouncing here and there and everywhere.  I always felt like I would just fly off into space.

What brought me back into my body was a natural fierceness that I had always held, but, had pushed way, way down. When I was younger, that fierceness of life startled and even frightened people. I didn’t know how to contain it and the energy bounded around aimlessly. Slowly, over time, I have come back to the Knowing that there is No containing the fierceness. But, there is a directing /harnessing of it that brings an easy rebirth. A focused and Knowing rebirth.

One of the ways I came into this understanding was listening to Carolyn Myss’s  Energy Anatomy. I know almost nothing of religion, have never read the bible and I knew only one version of Christ’s life story. Then I heard Carolyn’s interpretation of the resurrection and it made my heart sing. I saw where I experienced my own  crucifixion/resurrection in life. I instantly understood that I must choose which aspect of the Christ energy to focused on. I choose resurrection ~ Every Time.

Life is one continual rebirth/resurrection after another and I am grateful to have the gift of choice to celebrate the Rise…xoK