The Phoenix is one of my totems in life and I completely identify with being reborn from the ashes of the past. It is fierce, bursting into life with determination, grace, fire and beauty. It is magical and knows the power of beginning.
When I was younger, my beginnings were sooooo messy! Mostly because I experienced some very scary changes that lead to some very long stretches of me not being safe physically or emotionally. So! I started to associate beginnings with fear and went into new things either kicking and screaming or diving in with out looking around to see if there was any water to dive into. I dove into some deep empty wells in my younger years! And with those experiences building a repertoire in my psyche, I found myself floundering; bouncing here and there and everywhere. I always felt like I would just fly off into space.
What brought me back into my body was a natural fierceness that I had always held, but, had pushed way, way down. When I was younger, that fierceness of life startled and even frightened people. I didn’t know how to contain it and the energy bounded around aimlessly. Slowly, over time, I have come back to the Knowing that there is No containing the fierceness. But, there is a directing /harnessing of it that brings an easy rebirth. A focused and Knowing rebirth.
One of the ways I came into this understanding was listening to Carolyn Myss’s Energy Anatomy. I know almost nothing of religion, have never read the bible and I knew only one version of Christ’s life story. Then I heard Carolyn’s interpretation of the resurrection and it made my heart sing. I saw where I experienced my own crucifixion/resurrection in life. I instantly understood that I must choose which aspect of the Christ energy to focused on. I choose resurrection ~ Every Time.
Life is one continual rebirth/resurrection after another and I am grateful to have the gift of choice to celebrate the Rise…xoK